Thursday, October 3, 2019

alexa, i've given you all and now i am nothing


alexa, i’ve given you all and now i am nothing
alexa, always tip 20% december seventh 2018
alexa, play despacito
picking people’s pockets with your prose
dm me for my premium poetry snapchat
when can i go into the supermarket and buy what i need
with my clever observations and wordplay
alexa, after all it is you and i who are perfect not the next world
working class creative non-violent criminalz live forever
alexa, is this correct?
“work,” the word,
a slang, meaning
not making money
being busied sitting eating
or drinking coff ee, thinking
“when she says
sylvia plath,
does that mean she wants to
break up with me?”
absorbed self not even looking at
dundas street short shorts no more
ever expanding scripting scenes
avant-garde explaining this
“work”
and what gets in the way of it
instagram:
where nobody is ugly
and everyone wants to
buy your new book
my compulsively edited biography started
with msn messenger away messages
too bad i deleted my browser history
(wwwdotpornhub.com obviouslywithyouinmind)
(me in real life)
i’m good i’m good i’m great
ah,
you had us and you lost us
smashing pumpkins but not ava adore
don’t kiss me, i haven’t brushed my teeth
yo, this ain’t no poem, bro
lol
“adam was bored alone,
then adam and eve were bored together”
how to improve your writing in 12 passive aggressive steps
extremely happy until further notice
when I am drunk, I google defi nitions of words I use
just to make sure I am using them right
like
“proposition”
like
I want to be with you forever
that’s a statement
a statement is a proposition
what
my emotional cv on display
but love me anyway
lol, ok
who died and left you alone, huh?
wearing the melody awkwardly
“I miss about you regularly”
certainty in certain examples
how soon?
how late?
I am busy, therefore I am good
abandoned or overlooked
there you have it;
the answer to your question
I should start by explaining
zen and romanticism
the real and ideal,
at least for a while
painkillers and advil
i feel so close to you
my heart gathers disasters
fl imsy sheer black lycra
ordinary things in detail
people aren’t going to like that
what we want to avoid
is titling your poems as “poems”
5-hydroxytryptophan
“merci” pronounced “messy”
i’ll never understand what goes on
in that fur coat of yours
patient zero of my heart
that’s my name, don’t wear it out
terminally googling
all yr cracked iphone screens in heaven
i look awful
so you look good
(dorian gray baby)
you nuance the fl owers
and pop my pimples
make it memorable or whatever
obviously,
i appear asthmatic
in controlled situations
i’m friendly
i’m sweet
i’m mistaken
i’m sorry
green-brown eyes
of no origin
that’s what my mom says
totally blank
not precious
that’s it
a balanced relationship
on the brightside,
i don’t want anything else
making my way through this life
slowly
might i suggest privacy?
i’ve struck gold with a blank wall
and white collar crime
now i fi nd assertiveness daunting
underline all appropriate passages
the fashion became christian again
if i were to remove a word,
it would be contagious
the happiest
newest and coolest infl uence
at a reasonable price point
converse all stars
band-aids
berlin after the war
“the best words in the best order”
8 1/2 was an inside job
the wages of indiff erence are whatever
show your work
link in bio
please don’t stop
you can’t ruined nothing perfect
too long didn’t read
love in dog years
even venus was crosseyed
what exactly do we fall in when we fall in love
a better place is hard to fi nd
‘as soon as I start talking about my life, I start lying straight away.’
281-330-8004
celebrate life, romanticize death
living well is the best revenge
lively and lucid
initiated into mystery
reliability
trust
longevity
organic grocery shopping
everything is expensive
end of discussion
what that something was
oh, certainty
bias
rule-based, predictable
an anecdotal gem
specifi c
“yes we can” culture
seems to struggle
classically trained
stepping out of interest
something that ain’t me
i talk about insincerity instead
“you”
galvanized
meta
never executing
thereby nothing
“delayed experience”
a novelty, a big thing
a diff erent way to annotate infi nity
relaxed, lighter
cool, calming images
thinking of snowfall
and cats and
anything and everything i can’t aff ord
day job attention
paid and bought
here i risk ending on another cliche
if you see me with my head down
pulling my hair out
feel free to say “hi”
writing america without a lincoln tunnel
imaginary women an american wants to go to bed with
i’ve seen more prose in jellyfi sh
i’ve read better lines from eleven year old kids
in the white room
with black curtains
a pen, no notebook
all the french i can’t read
“new poetry”
i can’t have sex, i’m not horny
to suggest it
our secret
torture
popular culture
catastrophic fl oods
under normal circumstances
as the moon changes shape
so does my mood
“after all, the work is what counts”
names, dates, descriptions
the bolt of lightning
dividing loyalty
audition
new project doubt
frivolous dreams of glory and success
an amulet against forgetting
fl attering vanity
it’s the shoes, it’s the jacket
maybe he’s born with it,
maybe it’s an accident
in the grip of sentimental thoughts
a game of cat and mouse
the go ahead, depressing, bleak
more than a haircut, a shave
a strategy for contrast
out of contempt for details missed
“oh boy, i’m ready”
moving or standing still
simultaneously, at once
future tense
grazing smugness
getting things done
aggravated defensive but true
am I nervous in habit or repeating infi nite loop?
and defi ne mislead once again, could you?
a decision: how to spend your day well
envisioning the world in fl owers and breezes
resisting arrest on a cloudy winter day.
fuck, another quantum problem
yet all clocks go by at the same speed
what was i talking about? memory?
a more dramatic “now”?
it’s like you’re dead to me
“now”
too clever to be believed
like you, like me
most
poems
die
on the
operating room
table
cause there’s nothing else to do
every me and every you
antagonizing the other
as the no-longer and not-yet
i fold the paper again and again
you lose if i win and vice versa etcetera
indexed formal vocabulary
a sample, for example
heaven is an objective metaphor with you
tell me all the things you want to do
i’ve corrected you three times and
you still mispronounce my name
i order simple coff ee
and crave complex dessert
i screenshot my witty talk
after all,
i am very smart
with a strong academic background
a stunning revenge
more or less
a will and testament
describing my methods
giving examples
even if they’re not true

see you later alligator
after a while crocodile
no way jose
good deal, banana peel
don’t slip paperclip
know what i mean jellybean
you’re the boss applesauce
nice thinkin, abe lincoln
time to squirm, wiggle worm
time to sail, orca whale
here’s a hug lady bug
show me out, rainbow trout
good night, sleep tight
don’t let the bedbugs bite


before i attend a reading,
i google 24hour teeth whitening solutions
i worry about which shoes to wear
since i’ll be spending my time staring at my feet
better match my swoosh to my tie
i imagine reading my poems
while the song from sonic 1’s green hill zone
plays softly in the background
before i attend a reading
i listen to songs about you baby
i saw the best minds of my generation
googling their names obsessively
broke, disappointed, anxious
endless scrolling through instagram at dawn
looking for the right meme for the group chat
rule 12. anything you say can and will be used against you.
rule 13. anything you say can be turned into something else.
rule 21. original content is original only for a few seconds before
getting old.
rule 22. copy ‘n paste is made to ruin every last bit of originality.
rule 23. copy ‘n paste is made to ruin every last bit of originality.
rule 24. every repost is always a repost of a repost.
rule 82. nobody tells the truth on the internet
meme baiting poetry
ready made poetry
opportunistic expression poetry
i’m sorry i love you poetry
trying to not smoke poetry
“passive aggressive text messages”
poetry
i felt most like a poet when i was writing the word “poet”
on walls wherever with white out
because
my poetry is repeating itself

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