erased by grace

last x amount of pages of self-help book.

Th e hedonic treadmill, also known as hedonic adaptation, is the

observed tendency of humans to quickly return to a relatively stable

level of happinessdespite major positive or negative events or life

changes.[1] According to this theory, as a person makes more

money, expectations and desires rise in tandem, which results in no

permanent gain in happiness.

Th e set-point theory of happiness suggests that our level of subjective

well-being is determined primarily by heredity and by personality

traits ingrained in us early in life, and as a result remains

relatively constant throughout our lives.

Serotonin syndrome is typically caused by the use of two or more

serotonergic medications or drugs.[2]Th is may include selective

serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI), serotonin norepinephrine

reuptake inhibitor (SNRI), monoamine oxidase inhibitor (MAOI),

tricyclic antidepressants (TCAs), amphetamines, pethidine (meperidine),

tramadol, dextromethorphan, buspirone, L-tryptophan,

5-HTP, St. John’s wort, triptans, ecstasy (MDMA), metoclopramide,

ondansetron, or cocaine.[2]

Shem HaMephorash (Hebrew:  , alternatively Shem

ha-Mephorash or Schemhamphoras), meaning the explicit name,

is an originally Tannaitic term[1] describing a hidden name of God

in Kabbalah(including Christian and Hermetic variants), and in

some more mainstream Jewish discourses. It is composed of either

4, 12, 22, 42, or 72 letters (or triads of letters), the last version being

the most common.

john tavares points in 2018-19

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menu for fresh

menu for mother india

refracted through the memory of a memory

always already absent present

dirty joke theory to true crime classics inspiring today’s leading

artists

girls on the run

obsessive cataloging

on truth, fi ction, and the holy grail

logos: the photographer’s dilemma

job positions i will not apply for

nike air stab persion violet

anything other than wild success is failure

nanostories

frequently asked questions

syncronized

required risk

literally millions of people

round objects

semi-ironic sports

crucial location

hyperquick blowup

punchline

act accordingly

ideas fail

ideas succeed

bedroom producing

tools for selling

“you”

forward

exactly what you’re doing

measuring

unsatisfactory

whatever the matter may be

monitoring

trembling

minimal risk

in sympathy

don’t tell me about your friends

undeniably evocative

excited then anxious

poor work performance

trapped doing meaningless things

erased by grace

support

glimmer

especially acute

self-conscious culture

ironically wild

riot

from time to time

enormous attention

well-liked

popularity

to merit

pure scene

boosting

copies

similar interests

searches

so-called

own terms

a simple maxim

so close to the center

as specifi c as we’ve gotten

relying on action

a limited amount of attention

keeping secrets

elevated to celebrity status

with dismal results

set to bewilder

where does the idea go from here

standing ground

organized by the unemployed

to advance the story

intuition

remarkable accuracy

destined to die

ecstatic and moaning

a sacred site

60 seconds or less

ample evidence

constant distraction

multitasking

ultimately time hijacked

a better reveal

as it spreads

early adopting

high ranking

best guest

niche culture

directed banter

keenly aware

narrow view

center of the universe

marginal status

happy to oblige

apres moi, le deluge

odds of backlash

stripped down software

closely cropped

pre-existing tastes and preferences

not now:

dotjpg.com

dotpdf.com

dotpsd.com

dotavi.com

dotmp3.com

dotgif.com

no sequel discovery

wasting time

an inevitable appearance

the closest thing to ambitious

a cycle lasting longer

sowing uncertainty

monumental

technically sound

prolonging the story through controversy

scheming a path to fame

administrative applications

a timeline of projects

a real schedule

contagious

pleasure in something new

new tab

a list of words:

forever

mineral water

cell phone battery life

work week

atmospheric pressure headache

proboscis

a list of places:

union

squirley’s

mezzrows

the beaver

el almacen

superpoint

city pool

el ruddy

swan dive

it’s a conversation for kids

500 words on bias and redact everything infl ammatory

the culture i belong to,

the arts and culture closing sale

i have so many complaints

the least important part of me in forty stories

January - July

Complete Scripts – Debord

Th ree Interviews 00/01 - Godard

So Sad Today – Broder

Th e Lovers – Vida

Consumed – Cronenberg

Romantic Movement – DeBotton

You Deserve Nothing – Matsik

Vanishing Point - Markson

Under Milk Wood – Th omas

the selfi shness of others - dombek

No One Belongs Here More than You – July

Th e Conquest of Happiness – Russell

the Argonauts - nelson

A Lover’s Discourse – Barthes

Wittgenstein’s Mistress - Markson

Player One - Coupland

Th is is not a Novel - Markson

tenth of december - saunders

civilwarland - saunders

destroy she said - duras

narthex - h.d.

poetry as insurgent art - ferlinghetti

the bride stripped bare - anonymous

the bathroom – touissant

the future - auge

permanent red - berger

xx - mcgrath

diary of an oxygen theif – anonymous

desire lines - whyte

the truth about marie - touissant

making love - touissant

camera - touissant

taipei- lin

trip - lin¬

bright eyed - vaughan

permanent red - berger

why grow up - neiman

xx - mcgrath

enough about love - le tellier

fraud - rakoff

men in the off hours - carson

public enemies - houellebecq / levy

keep it fake - wilson

unquiet grave - connolly

diffi culty of being - cocteau

imaginary men - ayala

papaya - ayala

guignol’s band - celine

the second sex - robbins

concept of anxiety - kierkegaard

ugly man - dennis cooper

marbled swarm - cooper

pisces - broder

jesus’ son - johnson

men in the off hours - carson

bright eyed - vaughan

crystal fl owers - stettheimer

uselessness - lalo

slow twisting - anonymous

art of recklessness - young

polyamourous love song - wren

conspiracy theory book

/pol/icing my /b/rain

when i was a kid

passive research

introduced to 4chan

g20, fi rst taste of fear

obsessive twitter searching

photos being used by media

andrew being arrested

mtl, unbearable cold weather / depression

untouchables: the poems

sometimes it’s best

not to get involved

(fuck the police)

On drugs

on booze

on prescriptions

on makeovers

on meditation

on work

on time off

on retail therapy

on smoking

on wine

on being alone

on being social

on reading

on walking

on cycling

on instagram

on research

on getting tattooed

on painting

on having a cat

on cleaning your house

on cooking

on dining out

on kindness

on faith

on the weather

sometimes it’s best to stay indoors on a rainy day.

shakespeare

self-portraits

detective

a divorce

a death

the kids move back home

the body language of a couple fi ghting

fantasy football

downloading fortnite and not playing

people who love christmas

make america great again hats

count chocula import and export

tennis

whatever you do, steal your shoes

david shield’s 6000 promotional interviews for reality hunger

i had a white duck named heinz, he was eaten by a coyote i think. i

laugh about it now but it was quite traumatic.

buying more books than i have time to read

techno/house

novel memories

drinking whiskey crouched down hiding from view behind the bar

alexa cutting my hair with kitchen scissors in an airbnb kitchen

word didn’t save, whatever common error. 0kb fi le size post-ritalin

high. probably wasn’t great editing anyways, but now i have to redo

it just as bad as the fi rst time.

Alpers Roof Life

Austin John how to do things with words

Badiou

Barthes preparation of a novel

Baudrillard simulations

Beigbeder

Berrigan Ted

Boll something to do with books

Bose - too much

Bougoise repressed

Bouly Jenny

Boyer - disappointed fate

Carson Anne

Chevielle Eric

Christa parravani

Clark TJ - sight of death experiment in art writing

Coetzee- Elizabeth

Cooper Dennis - the sluts

Coupland - earthquakes

Cusk Rachel

Cyril Connolly Enemies of Promise -

Daniels JD the correspondence

Das ram - be here now

Davis Lydia

Deren

Dyer Geoff Paris trance

Elliott Stephen

Eula biss

Flaubert dictionary

Gaddis

Gide - thesis

Gilman yellow wallpaper

Giradoux

Goldsmith Kenneth

Gracq- balcony

Grief against everything

Groom Kelly

Guo- consider dictionary

Hart Crane

Hempel- reasons to live

Hooks, bell

Hughes - nothing if not critical

Joshua Cody

Kael

Kazantzakis Nikos

Kharms today I wrote nothing

Koestenbaum

Kreider - we learn nothing

Larkin Phillip

Lem- imaginary

Leslie Jameson

Levy - suicide

Maddox Bruno

Manguso sarah

Marczewska not a copy

Meredith Andrew

Monson letter to a future lover

Murakami runner

Nancy Jean Luc Being Singular Plural

Nikas Bob

Pesoa

Pico Tommy - junk

Ranciere

Rankine- don’t let me be lonely

Reverdy

Reznikoff

Rhys

Robbie-Grillet- for a new novel

Romains donagoo tonka

Sartre - the words

Sex magazine

Solnit getting lost

Tisdale - violation

Toussaint - urgency and patience

Wayne Kostenbaum

Welsh Denton

Williams - Kora in hell

Wolfe - new journalism

Woodson Jacqueline

Wren Jacob

Zizek - hopeless ness

Zizek - living dangerously

alpers - roof life

rishanmurti - love and loniness

solnit Rebecca

swoff ord Anthony

wittgenstein Th irsty Muse